Do you try to make yourself seem cooler/richer/stronger/smarter/kinder than you really are so that others will love you?
It’s a very human thing to do. I’m not judging you or shaming you. I just wanted to point one thing out:
That false face you’re presenting to others is like a mask that covers your true face.
When others love “you,” they’re not loving the real you.
They’re loving the mask.
You’re trying to get love, but the love isn’t getting through the mask. It’s love for a fake you: fake love.